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  • Heartbreaking Marriage

    Potek namang buhay to oo pagbukas ko ng friendster ko lahat halos ng mga batchmates ko either picture ng anak nila ang andun or yung asawa nila ang profile.

    "Anak kelan ka mag-aasawa?" (tanong yan ng nanay ko.)

    "Nay naman dati takot na takot kayo mag-asawa ako ng maaga ngayon gusto nyo naman akong mag-asawa na? Labo..."

    "Eh kasi anak di ka na bumabata"

    "Ngii alangan naman ma talagang tumatanda ako"

    "Uhmm I mean hindi na ako bumabata"

    "Oh tapos ma?"

    "Ah eh baka di ko na maabutan ang apo ko"

    "Ilang taon ka na po ba ma?"

    "49"

    "Jusme ma ang bata mo pa! kahit apo mo sa tuhod maabutan mo pa eh"

    "Ah basta kaw din baka tumanda ka ng walang anak"

    "Di ko na iniisip yun ma sa hirap ng buhay ngayon iisipin ko pa yung anak anak na yan jusme sarili ko nga di ko mapakain eh dadagdagan ko pa problema ko."

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    Actually minsan naisip ko rin yung age factor involved I mean if masyadong malaki ang agwat ng anak mo sayo tendency di mo na siya masasabayan sa mga lakad nya or worse di mo na siya maiintindihan.

    Pakiramdam ko kasi yung mga magulang din ng generation ko eh sobrang aga nagsipag-asawa. Like mga 22 years old or as young as 18.

    Balita ko sa singapore daw binabayaran ka pa ng bansa para lang mag-anak or mag-asawa in fact mas dumadami na ang mga taong hindi nag-aasawa dun.

    nakakatakot isipin na in the end wala nang magpapaksal sa pilipinas pero palagay ko sa uri ng pagkain natin nakukuha ang sobrang pagiging malibog natin eh.

    basta ganun mahilig sa sex ang pinoy malabong dumating ang araw na magiging konti tayo mehn...

    Not to mention na ayaw pa ng catholic church ang family planning ewan ko talaga bakit for no apparent reason sinasabi nilang ang pag-inom ng pills ay isang form of abortion therefore wag ka na lang makipagsex kung ayaw mong mapunta sa impyerno. Wala din naman silang sinabi about masturbation.

    Anong gusto nilang gawin mangisay na lang yung tao sa sobrang libog nya? ngek di ko talaga gets... I dopubt if lahat talaga ng pari hindi nakipagsex once in their lives or even masturbate jusme.

    di kaya sila mabaliw nun?

    Speaking of orgasms pinagbawalan akong labasan uhmm nope parang mali yung term bawala akong mag orgasm oo nga labasan til the day of the competition to keep my strength daw.

    Yan ang paniwala ng mga fighters na nakausap ko may kilala ako 1 month na di nagmamasturbate while yung isa naman talagang buwan ang binibilang.

    pero ayun sa friend kong bodybuilder fluke daw yun its an unfounded rumor kasi daw when you masturbate and nag cum ka the more your body creates testosterone therefore mas lumalaki ka mas lumalakas. hmm.. pero for safety na rin i-ta-try ko rin siya so mga three days nako and counting.

    Good luck na lang talaga sakin siguro iisipin ko yung kalaban ko ang may dahilan kaya di ako makapaglabas ng init nyahahaha

    Heniweys back to pag-aasawa alam mo mahina talaga ako sa math eh pero nung sinubukan kong i-calculate

    age = 27

    if mag-aasawa ako ng 30 by 40 eh 10 palang ang anak ko. eh alangan namang iisa lang yun? kung may kapatid siya mga 10 at 8 naman yung isa kung may bunso eh 6.

    Come to think of it by the time I'm 50 eh college pa lang ang panganay ko at ang bunso eh high-school.

    by the time I'm 60 saka pa lang siguro mag-aasawa ang panganay ko pero malamang dedo nako nun kasi lahi kami ng cancer, diabetes, high-blood, heart problem. Ewan ko ba.

    So anong tingin mo ngayon floyd? mag-aasawa ka na ba?

    hmm.. Ika-nga ni andot "the great sundot" - HINDI KAMI PAHUHULI NG BUHAY! nyahahaha

    saka mo na kaya tanungin sakin yan pag may pambili nako ng brief which reminds me kelangan ko na talagang bumili ng brief jusme!

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    heniweys I remember a very bad love story just recently when I opened my multiply.

    I have this friend who had a boyfriend and they went to europe for a tour. At a certain time they argued and ended up fighting where the girl decided to go out and drink to her hearts content in bars with her friends. She ended up bringing to bed a hot guy and she had a one night stand with him. The next day after all is said and done she and her boyfriend got back together but after a few days she noticed something.

    She's not having her period anymore... She's pregnant.

    She called the guy whom she had a one night stand with and the guy is more than willing to take responsibility for the child.

    She told her bf about it.

    fast forward to the future.

    She's now married with the guy she had a one night stand with, they also had another child.

    Up to now she still loves her ex bf and it was also said that her ex also loves her til now.

    I didn't mind asking if they still talk to each other.

    its just too painful even for someone who just heard the story.

    ='(

    Heavy

    How does it feel to be at 180lbs? it was just last saturday night that I found out I was 180lbs. The last time I checked it I was 150 hmm.. what the hell happened?

    I asked people around after that "Am I fat?"

    Thank God all of them said I'm not fat. In fact My body is proportioned and well intact.

    Come to think of it the only thing I hate about my body is my seemingly endless supply of belly fat. Yes I have tons of them and the last time I saw my abs was waay back in high school when I used to play basketball for 6 hours straight hahaha. yeah those were the days until my aunt was already short of sending me to the hospital for a drug check (Im glad she didnt!) but seriously i'm not an addict. I just love sports also at that time my hormones are raging (wink2x)

    But what is that scientific explanation for my being heavy?

    Look I can say perfectly say that I am one of the most active people around I think I already posted it sometime here in my blog the things I do everyday and that is yes go to the gym and play brazilian jiu-jitsu. in my spare time I also watch instructionals and ride my bike. Other times I just travel and go someplace where It doesn't entail spending much money. Either way I work out almost all the time. And Its been a year already time does fly.

    My instructor in the gym told me that Its muscle weight at the same time It has fats. I think I'll agree I really eat a lot. Like four eggs per lunch plus the viand and rice and another one at 4 in the afternoon and another one after practice.

    Yes I really do eat a lot the sport demands me to eat or else i'll blackout.

    themore the better. and now that the competition is drawing near im keeping up with my cardio.

    I'm really nervous shet!

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    Floyd talk about yourself share something about what you think right now?

    Ok... Its like this I really don't know where to start but let me first share to you my idea of friends who come and go.

    Friends are good and worth keeping but I had some friends along the way whom I lost and sometimes wish I hadn't.

    I fu*&ed up a number of times but the heck shit does happen and I admit that its my fault.

    yah admitting is the hardest part. It takes a lot of maturity to really step up and say you're wrong.

    But these are people that cannot be reached or even if you say your apologies they'd rather cower back to their caves and keep it.

    I say there's courage in admitting your wrong but it takes double the courage to do something after admitting it.

    But anyway sometimes things are better left undone and perhaps one day if fate does exist we'll see each other and talk as normal human beings should.

    Age and time are factors really in knowing a person as well as hurting them and telling them your sorry.

    is this post vague? perhaps... I don't know you asked me something right? uhmm.. I'm really not good in speaking my mind.

    pasensya na...


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    Last night I watched URCC 11 and the good thing is my teacher won! yes he did won he broke the nose of that iranian who's damn strong!

    hmm I wonder when I can join MMA...

    ^_^

    Kamusta naman ang lakas ko mehn?

    look oh mountains (nueva ecija circa 2007)

    kagabi nakalaro si Ly isang ubod ng lakas na tao na kaya atang tumakbo ng 50 times sa UP ikot.

    To date wala pang nakakatalo sa kanya sa competitions lagi siyang ginto never siyang nag silver or best effort.

    Yes blue belt na siya at kung di lang siya nag-absent nung last promotion namin sa deftac eh im sure purple na siya.

    So ayun ang two-stripes na white belt ay nakipaglaban sa isang ubod ng galing at lakas na tao.

    Siguro yung iba matatakot or maasar pero ako pag nilalaro nya ako gustong gusto ko talaga kasi magaling siya magturo. Talagang matututo ka! pag i-sisweep ka niya talaga tutuniog ang mga buto mo at bubukaka ka talaga ng ubod ng wide dahil lahat ng lakas nya eh ibabagsak nya dun.

    ganun si Ly at ilang beses din akong kumakain ng submissions sa kanya jusme parang walang saysay ang pagbubuhat ko ng isang taon.

    Actually kumpara sa mga braso niya na kasing laki na mas malaki pa sa calves ko talagang malakas siya.

    Nung nag stand up game kami di ko siya matapon ganun kalakas ang base nya na parang hindi man lang siya magalaw.

    but heniweys so far so good naman for me palagay ko palagay ko dapat laging may stand up sparring kami para masanay sa competition.

    Speaking of which malapit n pala ang competition and I can't wait to fight my second fight so far.

    Sana manalo haay...

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    So what have I been doing lately?

    other than hitting the gym or climbing our atis tree which my aunt always asks me to climb on and get her priceless atis. I read books and blogs.

    yes balik basa ang inyong lingkod at the same time review for the upcoming law exam.

    Pa sideline sideline sa gilid gilid para at least may pambayad ng gym at BJJ. But mostly utak ang gumagana sakin laging nag-iisip ng pang counter na technique at pansagot sa mga tanong.

    Tapos naadik na rin ako sa nintendo ds woohoo hayup yung campaign na nilalaro ko ngayon! after trying it for more than 5 times jusme ngayon ko lang nalaman ang technique kung pano matatalo ang kalaban! basta search nyo age of empires asteeg talaga siya.

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    Kulang ako lagi sa tulog siguro ang tulog ko kulang kulang 5 hours lang ni hindi man lang umaabot ng 6 hours jusme!

    Umiinom nako ng melatonin pero parang di na gumagana sakin at ang dami ko rin kasing iniisip.

    Sabi nila nasa lahi daw talaga yung matagal makatulog. Hindi rin kasi ako basta basta nakakapagisip ng wala kasi either mainit yung kwarto ko o di umiikot yung hangin or minit yung kama ko.

    Haay miss ko na talaga yung dati kong kwarto yung inanay...

    Dun grabe sobrang lamig kahit di ka mag elektrikpan malamig pa rin ngayon ginawa na siyang stockroom eh.

    Tambakan ng bisikleta at mga pagkain ng pusang (walang silbing mga pusa yan sobra walang ginawa kundi manira lang ng gamit grrr)

    sinira nila yung lahat ng tsinelas ko at kahit sandals ko... yun na lang nga ang natitira saking gamit na matitino aside from my guitars.

    haay nako happy weekend na lang po sa ating lahat mwah hehehe

    ^_^

    Defiled, defiled, defiled...

    So what is my take on the angono collectives' case versus NPC?

    A good lot of their statements have been talked about at length at ANC but mostly on the side of NPC.

    the problem here is I just can't seem to stick the right pieces together and determine what really happened. But for the record I would like to quote the statement made by an angono collective member.

    “We worked on this for two months. And we gave them three weeks to look at the production process before the unveiling, as spelled out in the contract. They failed. They can’t just ask us to go there on short notice,” Gappi said.

    If this is true then certainly it took a lot of time for NPC to study carefully the artwork and if they don't agree to the standards then perhaps they could've done something about it and not just deface anything or change the artists interpretation.

    "Likened to a commissioned speech"

    A statement made by the NPC representatives are as such that they compare the art to a speech commisioned for a certain speaker and all the rights for the writers has to be waved.

    For one I don't see the comparison between a speech and a picture. You see words are symbols but a picture is a replica/interpretation of a period, action, situation, feeling.

    An art is different from the written word for a written word may create images in the mind while an artwork would look for words to describe what the person sees.

    they are entirely two different worlds and cannot be compared to each other. But being a commissioned work is a big enough reason to do something to the painting in case it did defied certain terms in their contract, nonetheless to make it as a reason to completely defile an artwork is what I would subjectively define as an abomination for the artists rights.

    There is a catch here though, I have never seen the contract between the two groups but by virtue of elimination that if indeed the artists gave license for NPC to change its work then perhaps they will never cry censorship or the like.

    Like for example what is too leftist for a tattoo sporting the old alibata letter K used by the katipunan on the arm of a character in the painting merit changing it to a heart with a cupids' arrow?

    or whats' too leftist with having a lot of people congregate in a certain place that according to NPC interprets having a rally of some sorts, I mean who gave them the license to interpret it and defile it if not just to give it back to the makers of the mural? Tell me? Does it make sense at all? Even ferrari for goodness sake gets' their cars back if something is changed in it.

    In my opinion if you don't like what you ordered then give it back as it is, and don't you ever change it or do something bad at it.

    Or else be like the moron of a club they really are.
    just imagine how many journalist are being killed every year. tsk tsk

    >_<

    Misfortune

    Kahapon galing akong gym. nagbuhat ako ng ubod nang bibigat na mga barbell at dumbell jusme masakit pa rin ang katawan ko at ang hirap bumangon sa umaga.

    Come to think of it mag-iisang taon nakong nagbubuhat and awa naman ng diyos may pagbabagong naganap sa aking katawan isa na dito ang likod ko na pakirmdam ko talagang lumakas. kaya ko nang maglagay ng gallon galoon ng tubig sa water dispenser namin ng di man lang humihinga ng malalim at nangagatog ang tuhod.

    ok talaga sa gym na yun which my gym mentor (who owns it) calls it LORDS GYM.

    bakit daw lords gym sabi mo? kasi its his offering to the almighty daw parang a thank you gift from above.

    Gym buff kasi yung friend ko other than being uberly athletic. He used to play in australia in a football team yung pang NFL ha and the whole time that he was there laging champion yung team nila.

    Kwento niya sakin meron daw siyang medyas na di niya nilalabhan kasi daw kapag suot nya nananalo sila. di daw siya superstitious pero parang nakaugalian na nyang di labhan yun for the sake of the team asteeg!

    heniweys kahapon nga after ko magbuhat pinakain ako ng barkada ko sa bahay nila sa taas lang ng gym namin. eh naglilihi yung asawa nya kaya mga 9:30 na yun nagpapahanap ng mangga.

    Bad trip yung barkada ko eh san ka ba naman hahanap ng mangga ng ganitong oras? Yung last time daw nagpahanap sa kanya ng iba nung makahanap na eh di naman kinain in the end siya din ang kakain.

    So he decided na bumili na lang kami ng ice cream na mango flavor on the way papunta sa sakayan ko pauwi at bumili ng tatlong can ng colt 45 dahil sa bad trip two for him and one for me daw.

    As soon na pumasok kami sa kotse nya habang nagaayos na kami ng gamit at nagbubukas ng lata biglang may naamoy kami amoy tae na wsobrang baho.

    Rich: Bro nakaapak ka ba ng tae?

    Poy: Ha? di ako nakaapak baka ikaw?

    Rich: (tiningnan ang paa) wala akong naapakan eh

    Poy: (tiningnan ang paa) POTEk AKO NGA!

    Believe it or not malaki talaga yung taeng natapakan ko imagine size 12 ang paa ko kalahati nun may tae as in direct hit! eh kakatapos lang umulan nun kaya sobarang basa nung tae tapos ang bantot talaga buti na lang may protector yung carpet ng kotse ni rich kaya nailabas ko yung protector pero ang mali ko dinampot ko yung protector not thinking na may tae yung mahahawakan ko kasi nung pagtingin ko wala naman siyang tae eh turned out nung hinawakan ko yung mukha ko alam mo yun yung parang pupunasan mo yung mukha mo pababa yung buong palad mo humahagod sa mukha mo ayun naamoy ko amoy tae rin yung kamay ko waaahhh

    by that time tawa na ng tawa si rich buti na lang may dala akong alcohol sa bag ko nagpaligo ako halos ng alcohol buong braso at kamay ko.

    in the end nakauwi rin naman ako pero tawa kami ng tawa the whole way.

    ^_^

    kain na!


    Chicken and fried rice in isabela yum!

    How does it feel to be out of work?

    Negative

    1. Nakakaasar.

    2. Nakakapikon.

    3. Di ka makagastos ng maayos.

    4. Minsan iniisip mo mparang walang kwenta yung pinambayad mo nung college.

    5. Laki ka sa utang hanggang sa matapos ang taon na ito.

    Positive

    1. More time for yourself and your loved ones.

    2. more time to watch DVD's

    3. More time to go out

    4. More time to sleep.

    5. more time to just have more time

    Such is the life of a bum. Hindi masyadong demanding pero di rin naman masyadong boring. (Uhmm let me rephrase that yes its so GOD DAMN BORING!)

    Pero may gray area din siya which is something good and bad at the same time.

    YOU CAN DRINK! and thats what I did last saturday.

    Pinaghalo ko ang beer, wine, at gin and the f*&k may hangover nako di pako nakakatulog at gumigising as in sobrang sakit talaga grabe yung tipong nagmumura ka na sa sobrang sakit ng ulo. yung kahit umutot ka lang masakit na kasi pakiramdam mo yung pressure ng dugo mo sisirit sa utak mo grabe ang sakit di ako nakatulog...

    Eventually the following day nakatulog ako matagal siya from 11 am to 5 pm na miss ko nga yung UFC eh haay ganda pa naman sana ng laban... nakipaglaban yung idol kong judoistang si karo parisyan! the best yun sya na siguro yung pinakamagaling na no-gi and with gi fighter sa buong mundo ngayon!

    so i missed a series of good fights and slept my ass off while I reminisce on the good old days when I had a job.

    heniweys ok lang naman I think I need a rest after all the things I did to up my game in BJJ.

    Wish me luck guys!

    0_0

    sakit sakit


    Sabi nila maganda daw yung movie ni john lloyd at bea yung one more chance ba yun?

    ahh oo yung one more chance nga yun yung may kumakanta lagi ng "aayyll never goooo faar away fromm yoouuu!!!"

    Yup yan nga yung movie ng chick na iniwan yung jowa nya pagkatapos yung lalaki eh naghahabol pa rin sa jowa nya na e-engot-engot na sumasabay pa sa party na andun si derek ramsey na mukhang love interest ni bea.

    Ewan ko kung anong ending nun malamang hindi masaya siguro di sila magkakatuluyan whatever pero mukhang maganda pagkaka-edit nung pelikula tsaka pumayat si bea hehehe (tsalap)

    So kamusta naman ang mga lab story nowadays? ibig sabihin ba nyan gumaganda na ang palabas sa sinehan ngayon? hindi yung tulad ng pelikulang Exodus na parang naka bikini si bong revilla? (panoorin nyo para talaga siyang may bra na gawa sa dahon ng niyog)

    Basta pangit karamihan ng pelikulang pinoy minsan ko lang nagustuhan yung lab story na pinoy yung blue moon. while yung a love story naman eh halos alam ko na ang kwento dahil ang dami nang nagkekwento na kesyo ganito si ganyan na malaki gn boobs ni angelica panganiban (hehehe) basta ganun so palagay ko panonoorin ko siya mga 2 years from now.

    Actually maganda naman ang pelikulang pinoy sa totoo lang. pero problema ang mga tao dito either conditioned na, na manood ng imported or mas trip nilang manood ng pirated. (trip ko rin pirated eh sowee)

    isang pelikulang pinoy na trip na trip ko eh yung tribu. nakagawa na ata ako ng review about it pero nakalimutan ko na san ko nalagay or siguro andito yun sa blog ko hehehe

    heniweys ang dream ko sana eh macompile sa pirated yung mga gawa ni lino brocka parang yung kay akira kurosawa at kay stanley kubrick.

    Pakshet na lang sa mga lumalaban ng intellectual property rights jusme naman sa lagay pala kayo lang ang may pwedenga maka appreciate ng movies nila? sakim sakim sakim! patay na ang mga taong yun siguro sa libro pa maiintindihan ko kung bawal kopyahin ang isang paragraph ng walang source pero yung maappreciate ang isang palabas dahil trip mo talaga siya at napanood mo sa bahay ng barkada mo eh walang problema sakin.

    but heniweys mabalik tayo sa movie na one more chance (isert soundtrack here) speaking of women kupals (yes kupal if you don't know the word ask around hehehe) yup yung mga kupaloids na kala nila sila lang ang pinakamagandang babae na kala nuila sila pa daw lugi na ewan. madaming ganun sa totoo lang at di mo masisisi kung bakit may mga lalaking nag-gagago eh dahil din sa kagagawan ng mga hinayupak na yun (ok floyd asar ka kanino?)

    hep-hep-hep ano na bang mga pinagsasabi ko? heniweys speaking of kupal chicks naalala ko yung isang friend ko sa college before na foreigner half-pinoy sya. may jowa siyang isang pinay na batchmate ng ex ko nung high school.

    nag-usap kami about sa break up nila. kasi itong friend ko na to labs na labs nya yung jowa nya as in sobra then all of a sudden nakita na lang nyang nakasakay sa isang taxi yung jowa nya at may kasamang iba.

    he even had the courage to confront her about it ayun sai na lang bigla ng jowa nya di na daw niya siya mahal.

    ganun lang kasimple parang kagat lang ng langgam hehehe ayus di ba? iyak si pare ko di nya siguro na gets pero ganun talaga eh. I think he's happily married right now and yung ex nya nabuntis ng maaga and last heard of before she got pregnant medyo naging palaboy na chick (meaning kahit sino titirahin)

    ngumingiti na lang kami after nyang ikwento yun nyahahaha

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    sumabog yung bomba sa congress. Hmm... sino kaya ang nagpaputok nun? all of a sudden may pinagpapatay daw na mga member ng abu sayyaf sa isang village malapit sa batasan. hmm.. bakit pinatay? hindi hinuli? eh yung ibang nahuli asan na sila?

    Masyado atang timing na kung kelan sinusulong ang anti-terror bill eh biglang limpak limpak na mga bomba ang sumasabog sa pilipinas.

    And come to think of it if talagang naniniwala ang gobyerno na kasalanan ng ayala ang pagsabog sa Glorietta eh bakit di nila sila kasuhan aber? If maapatunayan ngang kasalanan yun ng Ayala imaginin mo na lang magkano makukuha ng gobyerno at nung mga namatayan at biktima.

    And ano namang ma-ge-gain ng gobyerno if itatago nila ang totoo about the bombing? bibigyan nila tayo ng false sense of stability? yun na nga yun!

    Wild guess ko lang ha palagay ko galing nanaman sa gobyerno yung bomba na dumedo sa congressman na former Abu sayyaf sympathizer.

    another reason to give credence to their anti-terror bill-shit!

    haay magbabasa na lang ako ng libro at magllaro ng Nintendo DS hehehe age of empires here I come!!!

    ^_^

    matinik!

    Alam mo yung feeling na ok na lahat. Nakaplano na yung buhay mo. masaya ka na or the least kontento ka na. tapos nakalista na rin lahat ng gusto mong bilhin at gawin sa dadaan na mga araw. Na sure kang mageenjoy ka at magpapakasaya.

    Then all of a sudden bigla na lang mawawala?

    pwes kung di mo pa naramdaman yun kailangan maramdaman mo kasi sayang naman kung ako lang nyahaha

    Well seriously ayaw ko ng feeling na ganun. Sa totoo lang nakakabaliw siya na ewan.

    Ang weird dun eh laging nangyayari sakin yun to the point na na-dedesensitize nako.

    Yung parang kunwari:

    "Floyd mababa ang evaluation mo kaya blah blah blah" (ako naman nakangiti lang).

    "Floyd wala na tayong pera kaya blah blah blah" (ako naman nakangiti lang).

    Madami pakong pwedeng isulat as in sobrang dami.

    but right now siguro ang pinaka-bad trip.

    Like look andami kong opportunities na pinakawalan, mga kaibigan na iniwan, mga possibilities na pwede sanang madagdagan then all of a sudden poof! wala na.

    Di ko alam kung magagalit ako sa sarili ko or magagalit ako sa mundo or maaasar ako sa buhay ko o sa diyos.

    Minsan napapatingala na lang ako sinasabi ko "Potangina naman eh andami daming pwedeng mangyari sakin yun pa ang pinili mo jusme!"

    Minsan lang naman kasi ako sumaya, most of the time rationalization cya actually since childhood ata eh pero itong time na to na alam mo nang kayang kaya mo nang tumayo sa sarili mong paa eh bigla na lang mawawala lahat.

    Para kang namatayan, wala numb ka lang nag-iiba ng pintig ang puso mo. napapahinga ka ng malalim, gusto mong uminom ng isang drum na beer or kumain ng sandamakmak na calamares na tag tres sa philcoa (op kors makikipag-unahan ka pa sa mga makikitusok)

    At habang nakikinig ka ng radyo mna palipat lipat ng FM station at napapamura kang bigla sabay inat ng katawan minsan iisipin mo na talagang minamalas ka lang.

    BUT! isang malaking BUT! hindi pwet ha (ok korny ka na floyd) di naman ako nawawalan ng pag-asa. Ika-nga nila things happen for a reason. Sabi naman ng mga psychologists eh rationalization yun pero when you come to think of it, it does hold some water. I mean masasabi ko mas ok ako ngayon than when I was In cebu.
    While Cebu offers haven for me andito naman lahat ng hilig ko. First and foremost eh yung brazilian jiu-jitsu at MMA. (Yung Iba akin na lang yun nyahahaha)

    Heniweys hassle pa rin... bad trip! shet na malagket na nagka-diket-diket!!!

    basta yun na yun...

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    Kakakuha ko lang ng two stripes ko last saturday in BJJ. Yes after a year ng sakit, bugbog, di makatulog, buhat, puyat, talagang blood, sweat and tears. Binigyan ako ng two stripes ng mga master ko.

    Basta malaki ang pasalamat ko sa turo nila at sa tyaga nila mag-alaga sakin. Lalong lalo na kay brother Richmond na talagang sinuportahan ako sa lahat ng pagkakataon.

    Salamat din kay master Fritz and Jerome na abot-kamay lang ang technique kapag kailangan mo.

    Pero pero pero kailangan ko munang manalo ng competition and this december na talaga dapat magkaron nako ng medal. Kahit hindi gold agad basta manalo!

    Last night pala nakakatawa sobra kasi naglaro kami ni master Fritz. Ayun na-armbar nya ako pero di nya nakuha kaya pinilit nya by that time nakatapat yung mukha ko sa pwet nya (yup imaginin mo yun) then bigla siyang UMUTOT! Kasi nga pinilit nyang hatakin yung kamay ko jusme ang baho! ayaw pa sana nyang tumigil kasi daw wala naman daw amoy so imagine andun ako sa tapat ng pwet nya savoring the smell of ass fart waahhh!!!

    nag tap na ako dahil sa bantot at hindi dahil sa armbar tapos sabi pa niya wala naman daw amoy hehehe jusme siya kaya palanghapin ko ng hangin na galing sa pwet ko maski ba walang amoy yun eh kadiri pa rin di ba? YUUUCKKK!!!

    Actually madami pang ibang kadiri at nakakatawang nangyayari sa gym namin yung pag-utot utot eh laging nangyayari lalo na kung seryoso yung laro minsan nga sobrang baho parang gin gumuguhit sa lalamunan.

    May minsan pa na nasubo ko yung kalahati ng pa ng teammate ko ramdam na ramdam ko talaga yung kuko nya sa ngala-ngala ko waaah!!! tapos yung buong mukha ko nasa kilikili ng teammate ko rin haay all the sweat, all the smell juskupow!

    Ganyan talaga basta contact sports exciting nyahahaha!

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    Nung nagpunta ako ng isabela nag stop over kami ng family ko sa isang maliit na food-stopover then nag-ikot-ikot ako.

    May nakit akong gatorade na may lamang brown na tubig sa loob, kaya tinanong ko yung lalaking nagbabantay.

    "Manong ano po 'to?"

    "Tu-nga"

    Inisip ko naman baka delicacy.

    "naiinom po ba to?"

    napatingin sakin ng weird yung nagbebenta sabay sabi

    "Tu-nga nga"

    tiningnan ko yung bote sabay nag act na parang iniinom

    "Tu-nga? masarap ba to?"

    this time sumigaw na yung nagbebenta

    "TU-NGA NGA YAN TU-NGA!!!"

    naisip ko baka suka.

    "suka?"

    "OO TU-NGA!!!"

    ngongo pala yung nagbebenta.

    napaalis ako bigla nahiya ako sobra. ewan ko kung matatwa ako o ano pero weird siya na experience sa totoo lang.

    ^_^

    For Mariannet Amper

    "Gusto ko po sana magkaroon ng bagong sapatos at bag at hanapbuhay para sa nanay at tatay ko. Wala kasing hanapbuhay ang tatay at nagpa-extra extra lamang ang aking nanay sa paglalaba," she said in her "Wish Ko Lang" letter. [I wish for new shoes, a bag and jobs for my mother and father. My dad does not have a job and my mom just gets laundry jobs.]

    "Gusto ko na makatapos ako sa pag-aaral at gustong-gusto ko na makabili ng bagong bike," she added. [I would like to finish my schooling and I would like very much to buy a new bike.] - Mariannet Amper

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    Look kid you're not an "isolated" case as Malakanyang said short of making your death as irrelevant as hunger and poverty in this country.

    I will never judge you nor tell you how wrong you are. No. I will never say that you don't own your life or that you owe it to your parents or the creator above.

    My dearest Mariannet I believe It is your freedom to do so-to take your life is your greatest freedom. I believe that It is equally courageous to kill oneself as well as to live it.

    They might say that you are a demented child a lonely girl looking for attention, that with your broken dreams and weak heart you choose to cut asunder your future.

    How would they know? Have they experienced yor pain? Have they looked into your eyes? And why is it that moviestars and famous people have the right to de depressed and get treatment? But alas not you my dear Mariannet you have to face this life astride the back of poverty. Oh poverty that great killer which our government has kept mum about.

    That while the government could give "Cash Gifts" left and right It has never given you and your kind a farts notice. Yes the government has thought that your poverty doesn't concern them. That your death is an "isolated" case.

    I think that wherever you are you will never be hungry again. You will have food on the table and you will play with angels. I know you killed yourself because you love your family. That you would rather give them peace than have them look for something to give you. I know you don't hate them but you hate what this government and this society had driven your demise.

    It is ok to die now Mariannet this country and this world doesn't deserve you. I would've followed your example if not for the hope of making more sense in this world.

    But i find you brave and admirable.

    Rest in peace my dear one. Rest in God and never be hungry ever again.

    I'll see you soon.

    Click ka na!!! Now na!!! (well just click tha pic that is)

    Las Ruinas del Corazon

    Eric Gamalinda (Zero Gravity)

    Juana the Mad married the handsomest man in Spain
    and that was the end of it, because when you marry a man

    more beautiful than you, they say you pretty much lost control
    of the situation. Did she ever listen? No. When he was away

    annexing more kingdoms, she had horrible dreams
    of him being cut and blown away, or spread on the rack,

    or sleeping with exotic women. She prayed to the twin guardians
    of the Alhambra, Saint Ursula and Saint Susana, to send him home

    and make him stay forever. And they answered her prayers,
    and killed Philip the Handsome at twenty-eight.

    Juana the Mad was beside herself with grief, and she wrapped
    his body in oils and lavender, and laid him out in a casket of lead,

    and built a marble effigy of the young monarch in sleep,
    and beside it her own dead figure, so he would never think

    he was alone. And she kept his body beside her, and every day
    for the next twenty years, while pungent potions filled the rooms,

    she peeked into his coffin like a chef peeks into his pot,
    and memories of his young body woke her adamant desire.

    She wanted to possess him entirely, and since not even death
    may oppose the queen, she found a way to merge death and life

    by eating a piece of him, slowly, lovingly, until he was entirely
    in her being. She cut a finger and chewed the fragrant skin,

    then sliced thick portions of his once ruddy cheeks. Then she ate
    an ear, the side of a thigh, the solid muscles of the chest,

    then lunged for an eye, a kidney, part of the large intestine.
    Then she diced his penis and his pebble-like testicles

    and washed everything down with sweet jerez.
    Then she decided she was ready to die.

    But before she did, she asked the poets to record these moments
    in song, and the architects to carve the song in marble,

    and the marble to be extracted from the most secret veins
    of the earth and placed where no man could see it,

    because that is the nature of love, because one walks alone
    through the ruins of the heart, because the young must sleep

    with their eyes open, because the angels tremble
    from so much beauty, because memory moves in orbits

    of absence, because she holds her hands out in the rain,
    and rain remembers nothing, not even how it became itself.

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    From Frances

    Love In New Wave


    I never get to see your face
    I only get to hear your drums instead
    You never fail to make me feel alright

    And when it comes to consequence
    You make me feel like I've got no regrets
    You never fail to make me feel so right

    You synthesizers to the bone,
    They lift me off my legs of stone
    All I need is to close my eyes
    We're making love in new wave tonight

    You take me places never been
    Like the cover of a magazine
    I never thought I'd get there all my life

    And crazy though it all may seem
    In the pages of this magazine
    There's not a word about you all the time

    You synthesizers to the bone,
    They lift me off my legs of stone
    All I need is to close my eyes
    We're making love in new wave tonight

    Whatever the tunes you know
    Whatever the tunes you know

    We're making love in new wave
    We're making love in new wave

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    Love the song! Love the video! download it here

    takteng ilong to!

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    Question: Bakit ko nilagay yang mga gamot na yan sa blog ko?

    First of all dahil kahapon kinailangan kong pumunta ng ospital para magpa check up dahil sa sakit konr allergic rhinitis.

    pero ano ba ang Allergic Rhinitis? (isa muna uling cut & paste)

    Allergic rhinitis is a collection of symptoms, predominantly in the nose and eyes, caused by airborne particles of dust, dander, or plant pollens in people who are allergic to these substances. When these symptoms are caused by pollen, the allergic rhinitis is commonly called hay fever.

    Ok so yan nga ang sakit ko. di nako nakakatulog or nakakahiga ng diretso dahil dyan, as in punong puno ng sipon ang ilong ko and eventually nagiging ubo na siya. Siguro kung bibilangin lahat ng cough syrup na nainom ko kaya ko nang pumuno ng isang balde.

    But seriously hassle talaga tong sakit na to and ang masama pa eh hereditary siya meaning habang buhay ko na siyang dala-dala.

    Noong high school acne ngayon naman rhinitis jusme ano kayang sunod? ito ba ang pag-babalance out ni mother nature dahil sa sobra sobra kong sex appeal (palakpakan!!!) nyahaha

    Dati nagpaospital nako nito sa cebu and may nakita na ang doctor na polypoids. Well ang polypoids ay mga baby polyps na pag lumala eh matatanggal lang through surgery at ang kilala kong sikat na apat na beses nang naoperahan ng polyps ay si ambeth ocampo isang famous historian in fact sa kanya ko natutunan ang existence ng polyps.

    Niresetahan ako ng limpak limpak na gamot naalala ko umabot ng 4k plus ang inabot ng mga reseta sakin dahil sa polypoids. then eventually binigyan ako ng isang maintenance drug na inhaler yung budecort. for awhile ok ang budecort then bigla na lang siya nawala yun pala eh na pull out na siya sa lahat ng drugstores (dahil old drug na daw siya) when I searched it sa net madami pala siyang bad side effects (uhmm old drug pala ha) ewan ko kung anong ginawa nun sa utak ko pero dahil dun nagkalimpak limpak ang pag-inom ko ng sleeping pills dahil nakakainsomnia daw siya.

    kaya nagpunta ako ng doktor ulit sa manila naman dahil nga na pullout na ang budecort at talagang asar na asar nako sa ilong ko. ok naman ang check up sa St. Lukes mabait ang doktor sa halagang 600 sabi sakin may allergic rhinitis ako na by the way di na maaaring mawala dahil nga hereditary at may complication yung sakit ko which is nagka sinusitis ako. (copy paste ulit)

    Sinusitis is an inflammation of the paranasal sinuses, which may or may not be as a result of infection, from bacterial, fungal, viral, allergic or autoimmune issues. Newer classifications of sinusitis refer to it as rhinosinusitis, taking into account the thought that inflammation of the sinuses cannot occur without some inflammation of the nose as well (rhinitis).

    So ayun niresetahan nanaman ako ng doktor which I should be taking for a week then babalik nanaman ako sa kanya for another checkup. He also said I must dry up my nose dahil nga sobrang daming mucus and if pagbalik ko next week eh meron pa rin at di natuyo either i-x-ray ako para makita ang mga bara and if meron nang polyps. Or if gumaling pwede nya akong bigyan ng mas magandang maintenance drug better than budecort. (jusme sana gumaling lord help me po pls pwamis kakain nakong madaming gulay!)

    Ok so bumili ako ng gamot sa mercury drug and potek ang mahal umabot ng 3k halos yung ngastos ko dun sa mga gamot and yes yung apat na nasa taas na nauna ang mga dapat kong inumin once a day.

    Effects? Ok siya ma naging maluwag ang paghinga ko at medyo nawala ang sipon ko pero pare naman hanep ang tama ng gamot para kang naka juts! hehehe ayus sarap i-tulog...

    But heniweys i hope and pray na sana gumaling na ilong ko or else baka ma surgery ako waahhh!!!

    Total Helplessness

    A friend of mine who's a Muslim from a brood of four females is about to take her medical board exam next year.

    Upon meeting her back in manila we were able to catch up on things over a slice of pizza at sbarros.

    batchmates kami nung college she took biology while I took Mass communications (in hopes of being in the media which well... disappointed me anyway)

    Then I asked her about her plans in the future.

    "Haay floyd kelan pa ba ako nagkaron ng control sa buhay ko? all my life tatay ko ang nasusunod..."

    I don't know if magiging thankful ako dahil hindi ako muslim coz you see in their culture talagang sobrang paternalistic. Macho dapat at nasusunod ang tatay lagi kahit kadalasan mali.

    I remember that this friend of mine had a boyfriend before and she had to break up with him because he's not muslim. Well short of saying her father disallowed it.

    madami akong lam na stories like this like my friend who's chinese who had been keeping his relationship with a filipina for two years and eventually had to break up with her because his mom won't allow it.

    He told me di pa daw siya nakakita ng ganung klaseng babae sa buong buhay nya and he really loved her thath he's willing to elope with her.

    But the Filipina told her not to, and asked him to go back to his family, she said that she'd rather see him happy with his family than being disowned.

    My friend spent nights crying in church after that, as for the filipina she married and had a family.
    My friend also got married to a chinese and with his family's blessing they are both happy.

    Well you see I really don't see the point why these certain human rights violations are not being put to light. I honestly believe that every person has a right to his/her own happiness regardless of race, social status, color & gender.

    we fail to see that even though we are fighting for our human rights we give enough loopholes for tradition to overrun our sensibilities and small things like these are either pushed aside or accepted as the norm.

    Minsan naisip ko that if the chinese wants to marry kapwa nila chinese then let them go back to china. Or the muslim let him/her marry somewhere in the middle east.

    I feel that inspite of all the well being and hospitality our country had given them parang ang babaw naman na they will discriminate towards us or anybody.

    That is whats lacking in this God damned country, we lack laws that would make our lives better. Like for example its a crime to not let children go to school or be irresponsible parents in other countries.

    But anyway it has always been a problem in other countries and worse is their killing each other off by simply the color of skin, or religion.

    sad. sad. sad.

    Mumu

    was about to finish a whole lot longer than usual post about ghosts and anything of the unlikely when my computer shutted down and I wasn't able to save the file (F$ck IT) >_<

    Anyway so the story goes that I was writing about the not so ordinary phenomenons that happened in my life.

    The unexplainable and the skeptical.

    First of all I do believe In ghosts, ghosts proves that there exists another life aside from what we have.

    Life after death.


    May mga brushes na rin ako with ghosts or what i think are ghosts.

    You see I've met people who don't believe in them some being scietists trying to debunk the idea na meron ngang mumu.

    A proffessor in UP cebu who's a renowned scientist and Psychologist had experiences with the paranormal.

    Like while giving an exam to a number of students in the afternoon she would see a guy acting like a proctor only to see it pass through the wall of the classroom. The students also saw it and immediately the exam was stopped in short of panic.

    Another story that she told the class was about the time she went inside a toilet in the new building in the campus, upon opening she saw dozens of small kids walking towards her smiling and giggling noisily. she closed the door again out of fright and upon opening it again the kids all vanished.

    Madami akong brushes with ghosts and the like pero ayoko sanang isipin na may third eye ako though madami na ang nagsabing talagang meron, truth is ayaw ko nang idea ng third eye. Kasi susmusunod sayo ang mga spirito.

    Yep it happened to me and I know if malapit na sila.
    Nung bata ako nakakakita ako pero siguro consciously alam na ng brain ko na ayaw kong makakita kaya ayun na shut down na siya nakakaramdam na lang ako.

    Usually nakakaramdam ako if talagang malaks ang spirit or gusto rin siguro nyang magparamdam sakin.

    The thing with these hunches and feelings eh walang third party na makakapagconfirm if talagang may nararamdaman ka o wala.

    sabi sa national geographic ang brain daw if under pressure from electromagnetic impulses eh nagha-hallucinate and yun daw ang dahilan kaya nakakakita ang mga tao ng multo.

    Pero may mga tao daw na sensitive sa mga ganun at meron ding mga hinde.

    Tulad ng isang tita ko na kahit nakatayo na lahat ng balahibo ko sa katawan eh di parin siya nakakaramdam ng multo.

    Sabi pa nga nya sakin baka imagination ko lang daw yun. Well sige lang at least siya di nakakakita and if makakita man siya sure na malakas yung spirito na yun.

    Pero yung nakakatakot ko talagang experience eh yung one time nagsasampay ako ng damit sa pasig. Usually kasi 9-12 pm lang ang tubig duon kaya pag naglalaba ako ng mga damit namin sa bahay (yes ako po ang taga-laba) eh mga ala una nako ng umaga nagsasampay.

    Anyway habang nagsasampay ako wala naman talagang hangin nun kitang kita ko kasi may mga maliliit na stalks ng grass hindi talaga gumagalaw. As in tahimik talaga lahat tulog na ang mga tao nang biglang may bumulong sa tenga ko as in sobrang close "Hoooy" sa totoo lang totoo pala yung sinasabi nilang tatayo lahat ng buhok mo sa katawan if natakot ka.

    Actually yung bahay ng lolo ko na yun eh talagang hunted usually may maririnig kaming tumatawag samin sa baba pero pagbaba namin wala naman palang tumawag samin or walang tao.

    Sabi ng tita ko may mga dwende daw dun at yung lugar daw namin eh dating libingan. Well ewan ko kung totoo yun basta ang alam ko yung unang bahay sa compound namin walang tumatagal ng ilang buwan usually walang tao dun, at creepy talaga pag nakita mo ang loob nya sobrang dilim kahit may ilaw parang madilim sobra.

    Another scary thing that happened to me in that house was when I went home from school and usually ang ginagawa ko eh kinukuha ko ang radyo sa kabilang kwarto para magpatugtog habang nagbibihis. Nung kukunin ko na yung radyo wala siya sa lugar nya eh ang liit liit lang kwarto at dalawa lang talaga ang kwarto namin sa bahay.

    Ikot ako ng ikot at tinanong ko pa sila sa baba kung nasan ang radyo sabi nila wala.

    pagbalik ko sa kwarto ulit para hanapin ang radyo eh nakita ko yung tit ko nakaupo lang na parang tinitingnan ako. Tinanong ko siya:

    "Tita nakita nyo po ba yung radyo?"

    "Hindi ko nakita Ikaw lang naman ang gumagamit nyan eh... Hindi ko nakita Ikaw lang naman ang gumagamit nyan eh... Hindi ko nakita Ikaw lang naman ang gumagamit nyan eh... Hindi ko nakita Ikaw lang naman ang gumagamit nyan eh..."

    Paulit ulit niyang sinasabi yun tapos yung mata nya parang nanlilisik na hindi makatingin ng diretso.

    Ako naman dedma sabi ko "Ah ok sige hanapin ko na lang" ang weird eh di siya tumitigil paulit ulit lang talaga siya.

    Hinanap ko ulit yung radyo hanggang sa natapos na lang ako magbihis at nang pababa nako ng hagdan nasalubong ko ang tita ko.

    "Tita galing kang kwarto di ba? ah nasa kwarto ka di ba? (by that time takang taka na talaga ako)"

    "Anong nasa kwarto eh andun ako sa cr sa baba kasi walang tubig ang cr dito sa taas may diarrhea kasi ako eh bakit pala?"

    "Ah... Eh.. Kung hindi ikaw yun eh sino yun?"

    Tumakbo ako pabalik sa kwarto ng radyo.

    ok... Patay ang ilaw walang tao at ang radyo... yes and radyo andun.

    that time ewan ko kung matatakot ako o maasar o ano.. di ko maintindihan talaga pwamis.

    heniweys madami pa talaga ang mga experiences ko pero sa ngayon eto muna.

    Happy Halloween nga pala hehehe

    The Price of a Doubt

    There's more than enough reason to doubt the so-called "scientific" results given out by the government.

    1. The results were given out only after a week, God knows what they did to the evidence. (Remember Vizconde Massacre?)

    2. Different opinions from different specialists but no independent body to announce the real facts other than what the Government wants us to believe.

    3. The lack of statement from Ayala corporation to solidify and give credibility to their claims that it was indeed their mistake that prompted the blast to eventually take place.

    It has always been the practice of the government to either plant evidence against suspected dissenters or cover up evidence as they bluntly did after sealing off all of Glorietta.

    Now do I want Glorietta to be open for everyone after the blast? No, but I believe they should've given the task to more prolific scientists and experts on the matter. Like, for example why say that it was caused by a bomb in the first place by PNP bomb experts only to deny everything in the end?

    Would it mean that this becomes a question of credibility, and whoever has the information (as of course they only have) has the last say?

    What bothers me most is the way the investigation took place as if it was all planned to discredit all of the people who would refuse to believe the results of the investigations.

    Government: "Look we told you it wasn't a bomb, experts says so! You should trust the government more or else become the idiot that you guys already are trying to blame the government with all the bad things happening to our country. Why not blame the opposition or better yet blame yourselves and not just blame us all the time"

    People: "Like Duh?! You have the evidence and you have the final say on everything how the hell are we not going to doubt you? besides you guys have been lying to us ever since so don't blame us if we don't trust you at all."

    Government: "You like facts then you have the facts here they are from the scientists and bomb experts!"

    People: "What we need is credibility and not facts given out by a government who could change results in elections and murder people out of whim to keep themselves in power!"

    I can swallow the idea that it wasn't really a bomb if and only if the evidence will be presented without bias. If the government that investigates it is as clean as the victims of the tragedy.

    Granting without admitting that indeed it was an implosion and a faulty engineering decision made by Ayala corporation then they should really pay the price for the lives of the ones who died.

    The thing that really bothers me though is there's no fire.

    'Til recently Ayala land has still refuted the findings of the police and the government.
    A very convincing result of the investigators hired by Ayala land could be seen here